Saturday, February 28, 2009

Well, my day got a little better. I've done about 38,000 loads of laundry, cooked a bit and have found the energy to post some interesting stuff. See that loveliness above? That's my granola. The little one called me while I was at work yesterday to say she was eating 'my food' and with a full mouth told me 'this stuff is delicious!!' I envisioned chewed up granola spraying the phone and dining room table.
I could not get it off the cookie sheet fast enough. Her little hands were all over it. What, you may ask is in my granola....I will tell you.

preheat your oven to 375 degrees

about 3 cups of rolled oats
about 1-2 cups of crushed nuts (I used walnuts, pecans, almonds and sesame seeds)
1/4 cup of honey
1/4 cup of veg oil
1/4 cup of brown sugar (I have used brown sugar splenda before and it was good)
about 1/2 tsp of salt
dashes of cinnamon and nutmeg
1 tbsp of vanilla
you mix it all and spread it on a cookie sheet (line it with something because it will stick like crazy)

it only takes about 25 minutes to be done. Leave it longer for a smokier, crunchier granola....don't do this if you are including dried fruit.

AND I GOT BOWLS!!! The one on its side, I got that one because it is small but deep and the pattern is sparse, I love that. The yellow one is Pyrex. Heavenly. I feel about Pyrex and depression glass like I feel about mirrors. I like to think mirrors hold memory's of the images they catch, I think Pyrex and really all old china do the same.
The bowl with the floral trim is AWESOME. I wish I had a better picture. I will have to google it's stamp....Marlborough-Royal Petal-Grindley......fancy schmancy. That bowl was $6.5o


Those gorgeous mugs are Fitz and Floyd. 5 of them were marked $.99 and one was $.69. Now, I know that was a steal.

Thrifting is glorious. I also got myself a blazer, a pajama top and sleeveless top to go with my aubergine suit.

This beautiful mess is oat burger fixins. YUM. I got a veggie burger for lunch yesterday and that made it virtually impossible for me to not make some this weekend. I have been wanting to for a long time and I am glad I did tonight. This recipe called for baking. Next time I will definitely fry and not use so much onion. I think I will add some chick peas next time too.......or make chick pea and black bean burgers. The vegetable burger dimension has opened to me and
I want to experience them all. The ones I am eating now is SCREAMING for some cilantro, a squeeze of lime and did I mention fewer onions. Don't get me wrong...these are good, but I'll find a better recipe and post it later.






Cloudy Saturday morning

I had a rough day at work yesterday and came home to two unresponsive, kids with no respect. You know how you ask them a question and get no answer...you get the blank stare....or you tell them 4 times to clean up the living room and explode when they are playing in their bedrooms and not even covertly but very loudly and defiantly. UGH. Then I watched the "Strayed' with Gaspard Ulliel and Emmanuelle Beart which depressed the hell out of me. Then the Hannibal Lechter movie with Gaspard Ulliel was on some movie channel and that made me feel much better because he was ridiculously crazy in that movie. I fell asleep watching that.

So, I am hiding in my room..hiding from my children...about to take a shower and have a lovely morning grocery shopping and thrift store shopping. I need bowls. we have three bowls in this apartment and I am sick of it.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

An inspiration....really?!

Since starting this blog have have gotten three comments....two today! Thanks to Ms. Single Mama and Single Mom Seeking. When I started this blog I really didn't know what direction it would go in. There is not clear message. It's pretty random. I write about my life, I guess, but that isn't very interesting. I decided I would write for myself and would be grateful if my thoughts meant anything to anyone. Hopefully, readers will continue to find my blog and like what they read. How amazing would it be if my blog was for someone else what my favorite blogs are for me!!!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

since last week........

I think posting and talking about these photos will produce the best post for right now. See, I woke up at 11:30 last night with that disgusting head cold, angry nasal passage thing brought about by diseased, caustic nasal discharge. It's so nasty. I just put my dinner in the oven, yes at 11:30 am, because I am not sure how much longer I will be conscious.

Here is what we have done on this long Presidents' Weekend.

I have an affinity for silverware and servingware. I don't so much like silver picture frames of trinkety things. It's the various kinds of knives, forks and spoons that get me. The handles, the bowls of the spoons, the tongs of the forks and the blades of knives are gorgeous and I love a good mix of styles on my table at one time. Imagine my surprise when looking through a coat closet at my parents' house, I found a jar full of old silver.





Above, is the set my mother uses (off limits to me). We use this on holidays for the big dinners she cooks. Gorgeous.



I love these matching, tarnished pieces. My mother and I agree that the tarnished pieces are the most beautiful. This pattern above seems so functional and attractive. They make me think of a conservatively set 19th century American table.

We are doing well on the "eating healthy" thing. Here is the oldest eating chili at Target.


More home made healthiness. Baked french fries, tossed in extra virgin olive oil, sea salt and Old Bay seasoning. My oldest loves Old Bay. http://www.oldbay.com/Recipe-Landing.aspx The fries were great. I top them with the cucumber yogurt dressing.



Smoothie making is going strong. The girls do well with supervision. Here is the little one making a mango, strawberry concoctions. We get our frozen fruit from Trader Joes. I love the organicness of Trader Joes and can tolerate the prices, but........while they are great about low fat, low sodium, low carb selections of products, there are not so many low sugar options. We make due, but I would like more selection. I do love the unsweetened soy milk and the goat yogurt.


I bought a futon for the living room. We have an 'infestation' problem in the building, so I refuse to buy real, lovely furniture. Oh, and I have kids so unless I am buying very high quality stuff, they will destroy it by merely looking at it. The futon came from a discount furniture store and cost $186. You see we put an immediate use to it. We brought it home on Friday night...tied to the top of the car. The little one interrogated the man who put it on the car. She had to make sure it was not illegal to drive with a futon and frame tied to the roof of our Camry. We made it home in time enough for me to assemble it and for a friend of theirs to spend the day with them on Saturday.






Tuesday, February 10, 2009


Bill Cunningham's column "On the Street" is wonderful. I never remember to read it then can spend hours..literally..watching his articles.

Why I love him:

"I'm not a good photographer. To be perfectly honest, I'm too shy. Not aggressive enough. Well, I'm not aggressive at all. I just loved to see wonderfully dressed women, and I still do. That's all there is to it. "

"Women's Wear has been photographing socialites and celebrities for years. But the difference for me is I don't see the people I photograph. All I see are clothes. I'm only interested in people who look good. I'm looking for the stunners."

"I go out every day. When I get depressed at the office, I go out, and as soon as I'm on the street and see people, I feel better. But I never go out with a preconceived idea. I let the street speak to me. "

BTW, Mr. Cunningham, I have ALWAYS loved high collared coats...not nehru or mandarin, but high high high.

His latest article:

Monday, February 9, 2009

crazy sky, clouds, water, ice




Camille Seaman. Wow. Her images are like nightmare sets for people like me who think of where is the last place in the world I would want to be. I swear. The photographs are so beautiful they are painful to look at. Impossible to look at and believe they are real. The things our world can do confuses the hell out of me. Completely. I would be in total fear of loosing my life if I was looking at that iceberg. Like, I would take my own life, dive into the frigid water, because I couldn't handle the beautifulness. What is with the colors of the sky and the water and the ice and the freaky light?!?!??! What is happening???? Unfortunately, I couldn't find any of the tornado skies to post here but if you click on the link you will see those stormy images that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I think I love her.


Sunday, February 8, 2009

last post, last meal of the day



Before I settle down to "Flight of the Concords" and a good hour of laundry sorting, I am enjoying my last treat of the day...well maybe there will be a glass of wine later.

I promised my kids I would make smoothies after dinner, so I did. Oh, I made a whole chicken, chicken in a pot, today. My young one said it was the best dinner she ever had in her life. She said this between spoonfuls of gravy straight from the gravy bowl...which was a big teacup because I don't have a proper gravy boat...that I like to use. I do have one I like to look at. I can not wait for them to see my mother so they can tell her how good my gravy was. My mother thinks she makes the best gravy in the world...it is better than mine, but mine was goooood.

I've posted enough today to last me quite a while I think. Good Night.




juicer heaven


I am adding this to one of the things I can't live without.


Orange Juice and bad budgeting



I swear, if I had $10 to my name I would spend it on some food I craved. I just bought $10 worth oranges just to share the experience of squeezing them with my youngest. We went to three stores looking for a good (cheap) juicer and only found a small hand held one. I think I may have to buy an electric one.




Yum. Shrimp and grits with cheese and lime. What a great sunday morning breakfast. We ate around the groceries I was too lazy to put away. Weekends are for cooking and eating, aren't they? Too bad I have to do laundry and clean up around the house. Life would be perfect if I didn't have to do that.
Last night I made the long beans I got from Hmart. I fried them with some garlic and salt. One of the online recipes said they wouldn't get soggy....but they did. I still ate them. They were fine mixed with fried and chopped pork bellies and mung bean noodles. MUNG BEAN NOODLES!!!! wow. How can something beany be something so cool? My kids were completely grossed out by the transluscent sliminess of them in the pot. Once I got them in the oil from the pork bellies and seasoned with the soy sauce seasonsing. Wish I had a picture, but I ate it too fast. sorry.

I LOVE recipes that require less than 5 ingredients. So, I made 'Persian Cucumber Salad'. One thing I am not is a cucumber conisseur. I can not tell the difference between a Persian, English or normal hormone filled American wax covered scary cucumber. Anyway, I used Persian Cucumbers to make this flavor filled salad.
Cucumber Salad
2 Persian cucumbers-diced (or 2 English or one giant American)
about 25 oz yogurt (I used a very low fat goat yogurt from Trader Joe's)
1 Shallot, chopped
1 large clove of garlic
4tsp dill
sea salt to taste
cracked black pepper
Mix everything. Let it chill really well then eat.
My daughter is dipping pretzels in it. I want to top bunless veggie burgers with it.











Saturday, February 7, 2009

Eating in Shanghai

http://www.likealocal.cn/page/2

Really interesting mix of beautiful food and real life. This guy shows you the dish and exactly where the restaurant is/was that served it. AWESOME.

Those really long beans in the asian grocery store


The search continues for new vegetables that my kids and I will actually eat. I found 'Cooking with Amy' and she has an interesting recipe I want to try. Few ingredients - Few steps


Chinese Style Green Beans (serves 4)

1 lb fresh green beans
1/4 cup vegetable oil or peanut oil (I used rice oil)
sauce:

2 Tablespoons soy sauce
2 Tablespoons wate
1 Tablespoons sherry
1 Tablespoons sugar
1 teaspoon cornstarch
chili or garlic chili paste to taste (I use a teaspoon)


Wash the beans and chop off the ends. In a small bowl combine the sauce ingredients. Heat a heavy pan and add the oil. When the oil is very hot, add the beans and cook, stirring frequently until the beans are wrinkled slightly, 5-10 minutes. Scoop out the beans and drain off the oil. Drain the beans on a paper towel then return the beans and the sauce mixture to the dry pan and cook until thickened. Serve with rice.
thanks, Amy:)

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Look who I found!


Joan Chew documents her life and family in this colorful, happy, enticing blog that is full of lucious photographs of foods, places and people.

Looking at and reading through her blog this morning has made me long for HMart! I always think I want to try new veggies, seasonings and mixtures of flavors. I will definitely use her blog to work some new magic in my kitchen.
The dish above is kangkung with belacan.

Thanks Ms. Chew. I will be watching.
I shrink away from recipes with more tha 5 ingredients and more than 5 steps. I tried to find and short and sweet recipe for kangkung with belacan and I think I found it over at mysimplefood.com http://www.mysimplefood.com/2008/10/blog-post_25.html

"This is my favourite vegetable since young. KangKung or KangKong is also known as Water Spinach or Water Convolvulus in the Western world. Water convolvulus is a member of the Convolvulaceae (morningglory) family. Ah ha....Infact in Malaysia I usually called it "morning glory" when ordering in a bit upscale Chinese restaurants (the ones where the waiters don't speak Chinese). I remember my brother used to laughed at me for calling it "morning glory". His rationale, how can a cheap vegetable like KangKung have such a beautiful name. :)Yup I always remember that this is a cheap vegetable as told by my grandma. This is because it can grow very easily in swamp areas as it grows fast when in contact with moist soil or water. Therefore to the older folks, this is a "longkang" (drain) vegetable meaning you can easily see it growing beside the drains."

"Another myth that they used to scare me with is that if I ate too much KangKung, I will get arthritis on my legs. It is because the vegetable is a water plant and the stems are soaked in water all the time. It will also transfer to human legs causing arthritis. Any truth in this myth? I don't know but trust me, after eating too much KangKung when young, I did feel pain in my legs. Let me know if this is a fact or just a myth. :)
Other names. Kankon (Japanese); ung choi (Cantonese Chinese); toongsin tsai (Mandarin Chinese); ong choy, ungtsai, tung choy (China); kang kong (Filipino, Malaysian); kang kung, rau muong (Vietnamese); pak bung (Thai).
How to prepare? This dish can be easily stir-fried plain with garlic but it is most famous as KangKung Sambal Belacan whereby you use dried chilli prawn paste. I cook variations of this vegetable using actual "belacan" or just ready made sambal belacan or just plain with garlic."
Simple Ingredients:
2 tbsp oil
1 red chilli,
500g kangkun
2 cloves of garlic, chopped
Seasoning -
2 tbsp belacan sambal (readily available in canned bottles at Chinese Supermarkets)
1 tsp light soy sauce
1 tsp sugar and salt
Simple Steps -
1. Heat up oil, sautè garlic until fragrant. Add in sambal belacan and stir-fry until aromatic.
2. Add in red chillis, kangkung and stir-fry at high heat until well mixed. Dish up.
I think I will add the seasonings with the sambal belacan.....we will see.
This dish looks like of dou miao, or snow pea tips. If is half as good as that then it will be a hit. And can I say how much I love the more amateur-ish food sites than the more slick and sexy ones. They seem so much more soulful and real to me. Keep posting MySimpleFood!!

Crumbling Grandeur

Emily Evans Eerdmans at http://emilyevanseerdmans.blogspot.com/ had a fabulous post on Feb 4th called, Elegant Decay: Admirals' Row. OMG what a treasure that house is.

"I have always been drawn to crumbling grandeur - the cracks in the veneer that betray a history and an imperfection. Give me flaking lacquer over fresh paint any day.
For my fellow travelers who also enjoy this aesthetic, here is a treat."

EEE, I think I love you.





Holy Moly! THEN, I realized EEE linked to this site with even more amazing pictures of one of these houses. http://kingstonlounge.blogspot.com/2008/02/admirals-row.html


this is dream material.



Thursday, February 5, 2009

Go Fug Yourself

http://gofugyourself.celebuzz.com/

Oh my. They are hilarious. whew.

I want to ride away, now.


Life is seriously beating me down. Work and kids....are they necessary evils? I like my job and I love my kids, more than anything. Do these things have to torment me and tear me to pieces? Is it just me? Do I need a therapist? Do I have time or money to go to a therapist? Maybe I should join a gym so I can work off my anxiety and get healthy. Should I budget and make time for that? Should I register for more online classes, even though they are making me take a math class. WTF does an English major want with math?
(http://www.pashley.co.uk/index.php) I want to ride that bike through the country side. Rain or shine. As long as its warm. I want to ride it through back roads and through a small town, then back to an old house that has tall ceilings, french doors, real windows in between rooms and loads of old stuff. Then I would lie in front of an open window with a good book and read myself to sleep.
The thought of what I really have to do today (meet with my older daughter's school administrators and schlep my ass to work) makes me want to cry which is ridiculous because work and kids permeate everyday of my life. Shouldn't I be at peace with them?

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Mammy and the Golliwogg

After hearing about the controversy in the UK behind using the term "Golliwogg", I wikied it and learned a few things. I first heard of 'Golli' dolls on 'Cash in the Attic' where they found a doll that was considered a treasure. Clearly the image is muched loved. But nothing can be cut and dry, can it? For instance, I love the Mammy image even though she represents the twisted idea that black women were blissfully ignorant, inherantly happy to be in servitude, completely lacking in sexuality...all things white women were not. I think I embrace it because it represents blacks' struggle. I wear it like a badge. Maybe as a passive confrontation, I don't know. Mammy is part of our American history that is filled with so much ugliness, but still its ours to live with.
One thing that surprises me are the staunch advocates of these images. All I can say to them is that yes, you may have grown up with these images and they remind you of your loving, cosy, nurtured childhood, but these images are borne from ignorance, fear and hatred of non-white people. Yeah, that's heavy and maybe you think this is just the way things are, but call it what it is. Stop defending prejudice.




Golliwogg
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Georgie with Robert's old Wolly, pen and wash (2008). The golliwog is best known as a children's toy.
The "Golliwogg" (later "Golliwog") is a character of children's literature created by Florence Kate Upton in the late 19th century, inspired by a blackface minstrel doll which Upton had as a child in America. The character, depicted in the books as a type of rag doll, was reproduced, both by commercial and hobby toy-makers as a children's toy. The toy was known as a "golliwog", and had great popularity in North America, Britain, Europe and Australasia, into the 1960s. While home-made golliwogs were sometimes female, the golliwog was generally male. For this reason, in the period following World War II, the golliwog was seen, along with the teddy bear, as a suitable soft toy for a young boy.
The toy golliwog has become a collector's item. However, the image of the doll has become the subject of heated debate. One aspect of the debate in its favor argues that it should be preserved and passed on as a cherished cultural artifact and childhood tradition, while opponents argue it should be retired as a relic of an earlier time when racism against black people was blatant.
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[edit] History
Florence Kate Upton was born in 1873 in Flushing, New York, the daughter of English parents who had emigrated to the United States three years previously. Following the death of her father, she moved back to England with her mother and sisters when she was fourteen. There she spent several years drawing and developing her artistic skills. In order to afford tuition to art school, she illustrated a children's book entitled The Adventures of Two Dutch Dolls and a Golliwogg. The 1895 book included a character named the "Golliwogg", who was first described as "a horrid sight, the blackest gnome", but who quickly turned out to be a friendly character, and is later attributed with a "kind face". A product of the blackface minstrel tradition, the character was classic "darkie" iconography. The Golliwogg had jet black skin; bright, red lips; and wild, woolly hair. He wore red trousers, a shirt with a stiff collar, red bow-tie, and a blue jacket with tails — all traditional minstrel attire.

Florence Kate Upton's Golliwogg in formal minstrel attire in Golliwogg and Friends in 1895.

Golliwogs for sale, in 2008, in the Home Counties
Upton's book and its many sequels were extremely successful in England, largely because of the popularity of the Golliwogg. Upton did not trademark her character, and its name, spelt "golliwog", became the generic name for dolls and images of a similar type.[1] The golliwog doll became a popular children's toy throughout most of the 20th century, and was incorporated into many aspects of British commerce and culture; for instance, some of Enid Blyton's books feature them, often as a villain and sometimes as heroes. Upton's Golliwogg was jovial, friendly and gallant.[1] but some later golliwogs were sinister or menacing characters. The Black and White Minstrel Show, a blackface musical show which ran for many seasons on UK television and stage, had performers blacked up as golliwogs, with white-ringed eyes, as in the original Minstrel show tradition.
The golliwog contributed enormously to the spread of 'darky' iconography in Europe. It also made its way back across the Atlantic in the form of children's literature, dolls, children's china and other toys, ladies' perfume, and jewellery.
British jam manufacturer James Robertson & Sons used a golliwog called Golly as its mascot from 1910, after John Robertson apparently saw children playing with golliwog dolls in America. Robertson's started producing promotional Golliwog badges in the 1920s, which could be obtained in exchange for tokens gained from their products. In 1983, the company's products were boycotted by the Greater London Council as offensive, and in 1988 the character ceased to be used in television advertising. The company used to give away golliwog badges making up different sets, such as playing jazz instruments, or with sports equipment, or other such themes. The badge collection scheme was retired in 2001.
In a statement reported by the BBC, Virginia (Ginny) C Knox, previously brand director for Robertson's and now Chief Operating Officer of the Culinary Brands Division of RHM, told the Herald Newspaper in Scotland in 2001 that the decision to remove the Golly (Golliwogg) symbol from Robertson's jam and marmalade jars was taken after research found that children were not familiar with the character, although it still appealed to the older generations. "We sell 45 million jars of jam and marmalade each year and they have pretty much all got Golly on them," said Ms Knox. "We also sell 250,000 Golly badges to collectors and only get 10 letters a year from people who don't like the Golliwogg image".[2]. Today, Robertson's Golliwog badges remain highly collectible, with the very rarest sometimes selling for more than £1,000, and even comparatively common and recent badges being worth £2.00–£3.00.

[edit] Golliwog as "racist" insult
After the publication of Upton's first book, the term "golliwogg" was used both as a reference to the children's toy and as a generic, racist term for blacks. In Britain and the Commonwealth, "golliwog" perhaps became "wog," a racial slur applied to dark-skinned people worldwide, including Africans, Southern Italians, Greeks and other Mediterranean people, Native Americans, Middle Easterners, Hispanics, and Indians. [3] In Australia many young people of Greek, Lebanese and other Mediterranean descent have adopted the name "wog" as a humorous identifier. An example of this from popular Australian culture is the 2000 movie The Wog Boy starring the popular actor Nick Giannopoulos.
In the early 1980s, revised editions of Enid Blyton's Noddy books replaced Mr. Golly, the golliwog proprietor of the Toytown garage, with Mr. Sparks.
In September, 2007, retail chain Zara put a T-shirt on sale in its UK stores with a Golliwog-looking little girl printed in the front[citation needed]. The design spurred controversy, coming only weeks after the company had been forced to pull a swastika-emblazoned handbag from its shelves.[4]
On Saturday, June 21, 2008, supermodel Naomi Campbell pleaded guilty to assault in a foul-mouthed "air rage" incident which occurred on April 3, 2008, where she alleges being called a 'Golliwog supermodel' by an employee of British Airways. Campbell accused the airline of racism. British Airways issued a statement denying the allegations made by Campbell, claiming that they "are proud of our diversity", and "have strict policies concerning dignity at work and have long-standing training programs on diversity and inclusion."[5][6]
In February 2009, Carol Thatcher, daughter of Margaret Thatcher, was reported to have commented, in an off air conversation at the BBC, that a tennis player at the Australian Open reminded her of the golliwog motif seen on jars of jam in her childhood. The comment was considered by the BBC as "wholly unacceptable" and Thatcher was informed that she would no longer be on BBC's One Show. Soon after, Thatcher promptly stated that it was a silly joke and declined to make an "unconditional apology" as requested by the BBC.[7]. It has since transpired in the media that it was the métis French top player Jo Wilfried Tsonga who was the target of Carol Thatcher's comments. [8]

[edit] Other meanings and In Popular Culture
"Golliwog" was World War II British naval slang for a Gauloise cigarette, which had tobacco that was nearly black in colour.[9]
The American rock group Creedence Clearwater Revival was known as "The Golliwogs" and under this name they released a number of singles on the Fantasy label before they rose to prominence. Golliwog is also a Slovenian punkrock/hardcore band.
In unofficial military parlance of some countries which has become less common nowadays, the term "golliwog" was used to indicate a piece of equipment that has been tuned, upgraded, and possibly customised to the point where it is no longer similar to the stock item it started as.[citation needed] The term stems from the fact that although the Golliwog itself was black – its standard form was featureless in a sense – it was always represented as decorated smartly with, for example, ribbons and bows. It could be said to be found always dressed up in finery; no Golliwog was ever seen dressed conservatively.[citation needed]
The sixth movement of Claude Debussy's Children's Corner is titled "Golliwogg's Cakewalk", inspired by the American dance.
Golliwog is the former name of a popular line of cocoa biscuits in Australia. First released in the 1960s, they were renamed by manufacturer Arnott's in the mid-1990s and are now sold under the name of "Scalliwag".
Golliwog is a solo-single by ABBA member Agnetha Fältskog from 1974.
"I Feel Like A Wog" is a song by The Stranglers from their 1977 album "No More Heroes".
Contortion; In a rag doll or golliwog act, one or two assistants bend, shake and carry the contortionist in such a way as to convince the audience that the disguised performer is actually a limp, life-sized doll. The act usually ends by stuffing the doll into a small box, after which the performer gets out and takes off the costume.[citation needed]
Golliwogg is featured in The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen as the pilot of an interdimensional ship, along with the Dutch dolls. Golliwogg is said to be a creature made of dark matter in the book.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Books and Art

I am reading 'The Masterpiece', by Emile Zola. In the work Zola exposes the life and psychology of his friend Paule Cezanne. The book ended their friendship.
"Ultimately, Claude is filled with such despair and frustration about his inability to complete his “masterpiece” of a female bather to his satisfaction - to depict his ideal woman on his canvas - that he commits suicide after a frenetic episode of painting his nude’s legs and torso like “some infatuated visionary driven by the torments of the real to the exaltation of the unreal” (Zola 347). Claude resorts to hanging himself from a ladder positioned directly in front of the female nude in his incomplete masterpiece in such a way that it appears that he died while gazing at this woman’s eyes. The emotions manifest in this episode are analogous to the intense feelings of repressed eroticism experienced by Cézanne, himself, even though in Cézanne’s case, they never break through the surface so violently that he resorts to suicide like Claude."
After reading "The Masterpiece", Cezanne sent this note to Zola:
"After receiving a copy of the novel from Zola in 1886, Cézanne sent a succinct and formal note back to Zola stating: “…I thank the author of Les Rougon-Macauart for this kind token of remembrance and ask him to allow me to clasp his hand while thinking of bygone years. Ever yours under the impulse of past times, Paul Cézanne” (qtd Murphy 122). This letter denoted the dissolution of their long and intimate friendship. "
ouch.
If you read Zola, you know he is not very nice to his characters. They are real, solid, beautifully made, but life grinds them into the ground...grinds them to dust.

The Masterpiece Zola's artist (Claude Lantier) creates is modeled after "Le déjeuner sur l'herbe" (The Lunch on the Grass in French by Édouard Manet. Painted between 1862 and 1863 . The painting juxtaposes a female nudes with fully dressed men and sparked shock and outrage when the work was first exhibited at the Salon des Refuses in 1863. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Luncheon_on_the_Grass)


I really like Manet....a lot. We are fortunate to have a few of his works in the National Gallery here in DC. Frederic Bazille's "Young woman with Peonies"is considered an homage to Manet.

http://www.nga.gov/collection/gallery/gg90/gg90-61356.html


"Perhaps because he died so young—killed during the Franco-Prussian War only days short of his twenty-ninth birthday—Bazille’s name is less familiar than those of the other founders of impressionism. Bazille met Monet, Renoir, and Sisley as fellow students in the studio of painter Charles Gleyre. The four were unimpressed by the lofty religious and mythological subjects and polished painting style demanded by the academic tradition. They were attracted instead to the broad “unfinished” brushwork of Manet and also shared his preference for scenes of modern life.
This painting can be seen as Bazille’s homage to Manet. The flower vendor appears to be a reference to the black woman with the extravagant bouquet who stands behind Manet’s infamous nude Olympia. The flowers themselves, especially the prominent peonies, also offer a kind of tribute. Manet cultivated peonies and often painted their lush blooms. Here Bazille seems to have matched even his painting style—usually more smoothly blended—to Manet’s own, echoing with his brushstrokes Manet’s thick patches of color."

Here is "Olympia". This saucy broad rocked the establishment, too.

My Chicken in a Pot

One of my first posts was about "Chicken in a Pot". I made it on Sunday and it was lovely. Because I used parts (thighs) and not a whole chicken, the result was stew-like, a little more fatty than I wanted, but overall, a nice dish.

I did use lots of garlic which cooked into the sauce and two plum tomatoes. I had about 8 thighs, trimmed of almost all skin and fat and only used about 3 tablespoons of olive oil. I also added a couple bay leaves.

I am always surprised at the bright yellow chicken makes when cooked. Next time I make this I will use even less olive oil, or use boneless breasts, and add some green and kalamata olives.


That Sunday was a cooking day. Before the chicken, I made a breakfast of fluffy scrambled eggs, grits with cheese (not quick grits-thank you very much) and pan fried salmon fillets...oh and toast. YUM. Sorry, no photos of that meal. We devoured it in record time. After breakfast I made 'dessert', an apple crisp from a boxed mix. I got the boxed mix in a basket for Christmas.


No picture of the finished product..sorry. It was lovely.


Monday, February 2, 2009

angry at the ignorance

http://blacksnob.com/snob_blog/2009/2/1/solutions-help-madison-avenue-find-fauxbama-girls.html


ugh. why people, why? i had to send miss danielle pictures of my girls for her campaign. when will we be understood? when will they really SEE us? yes, one drop of black makes us black, but this is a whole lot of 'other' in us, too.


beautiful pic of the First Lady and one of her little ones. i love them both, but she is my favorite.

she is feisty like my little one.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Big House love

We have been to George Washington's home (twice, I think). The last time we toured the house my hot, tired and annoyed daughter asked the guide, "If he was so rich why couldn't he afford air conditioning?" I on the other had enjoyed the heat and the narrow stairs, the china, the kitchens, the outbuildings, the gardens, the drive, the view of the river, the animals...all of it. It was heaven.

A few years ago we traveled to Williamsburg and went to the Carter's Grove. The house was opulent. The gardens, quaint. The slave quarters, humble and sad, inhabited by slave/actors. The day was long and tiring, but being a Carter myself, I thoroughly enjoyed it and couldn't help but feel we experienced our own history that day.

Carter's Grove:




One of the garden views. I think this one if from the back of the house:

So cute...slightly creepy...




If I win the lottery.....Easy money, dream big. When they day comes when I have millions of dollars to roll around in, I will buy a house like this one to roll around in. How fabulous is this? My attraction to these big old houses stems from childhood fairytales, the attraction of living in a carefree, unrealistic world and the desire to immerse myself in a house full of memories and history. I am one of those people who recognizes the life in old building and old things. Antiques hold memories of all the people who lived with them and I feel privileged to share and contribute to these memories.